Music saves my soul

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

didnt went to school today.. feeling like shyt... heard from rachel that Mr Anil ask to read up on parliamentary sovereignty and most importantly, good news is this friday there is no mock exam!!!! BUT, mock exam will be next week thursday and friday... -.-''' i'm dead soon.. wonder hw am i going to sqeeze writing the full essay within 45 mins... usually i took 2 hrs for each essays...

tried jus now.. although the fastest i cn is 1h 30 mins.. bt its still so far away fr my target...zzzz.. wrote for 3 times jus nw.. the same topic.. i dun feel anything on my right hand now..zzz...

keep coughing e whole day.. so 'xin ku'.. wish i could get well soon....

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Monday, September 29, 2008

~feeling so sick!~

been sick for the past few days.. today almost wanted to fall asleep during common law cause have taken my medicine in the morning.. feel like zzzzz... but manage to pass through.. was slightly awake during criminal law tutorials.. but still feel sucks..

Ms Jennifer shock me today when i'm just shutting my eyes at the reception table , i thought it was Hui Jia.. and i wanted to shout "HUI JIA, WHAT U DOING? I WANT REST LA" but its not her -.-'''.. was asking whether isit Hui Jia or Ms Jennifer who pass me the virus....zzzzz....suppose to meet Ms Nirmala today after school but she was busy.. so once again, me and Hui Jia become the "STANSFIELD MODEL" today again.. cos raining...zzzz..

thinking of tmr... both public and common law presentation... i'm so sick now.. feel like choping my head off.. seems to be much heavier now.. jus feel like sleeping for the whole day tmr..

~All EX-SILIANS~ Pls let me know the confirm number of people coming to Ms Leong's wedding by TOMORROW!

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

my eyes is swollen.. feeling so sick now..

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

~WENDY IS DEAD~

I'M DEAD! I'VE GAVE UP IN LIFE ALREADY.. NO MATTER HOW MUCH OR HOW HARD I TRY PEOPLE STILL TAKE ME AS AN IDIOT! OR TOILET PAPER, USE AND THROW.. WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR? WHY MOST OF THEM ALWAYS TREAT ME LIKE AN IDIOT? OK LA, I'M DUMB AND STUPID.. ALWAYS BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY YOU ALL WILL APPRECIATE AND ACCEPT ME EVEN MORE. I TRIED MY BEST TO HELP U GUYS AS MUCH AS I COULD.. WHAT DO I HOPE IN RETURN? JUST LOOKING FORWARD ENTERING INTO A FRIENDSHIP. IS TAT TOO MUCH? ISIT REALLY THAT FUN TO MAKE A FOOL OF ME? PLEASE, I REALLY WAN A SIMPLE LIFE...I'M REALLY REALLY DAMN STUPID TO BELIEVE U ALL AGAIN AND AGAIN..

HOW I WISH MY AUNT COULD SEE THIS.. PLEASE, DUN VENT YOUR ANGRY ON ME. I SHOULD BE ANGRY WITH YOU INSTEAD. NOT MY FAULT LOR, UR CARELESSNESS WHICH MAKE TAT CUP OF TEA POUR OVER AND U WANTED TO SCOLDE ME? NOW MY LAPTOP IS ALL YOUR TEA AND MY HANDPHONE IS SPOILT BECASUE OF YOU! DO YOU KNOW THAT I REALLY HAVE A LOT OF IMPORTANT STUFF IN MY PHONE WOMAN??????????? I'VE LOST ALL MY CONTACTS! ALL MY TEACHERS CONTACT! I'M NOW IN DEEP SHYT ! I'M REALLY AM.

AND PLEASE.. I REALLY HAD ENOUGH! OK LA, NOW I ADMIT THAT I'M STUPID, DUMB, MORON ETC.. WHATEVER U SAY LA.. STUDY CANNOT STUDY, WORK CANNOT WORK.. TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE, YOU ALL HAPPY NOW? THATS WHAT U ALL WANNA SEE RIGHT? NOW I TELL YOU, YOU ALL HAVE SUCCEED IN DOING THAT! I'M DEAD OK!

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9:11 PM;

~BORED~

last night keep thinking of whether to go band anot.. shldnt have go..zzzz.. went today and NO FLUTE PLAYERS turn up except me.. heard last week worse, i didnt go.. thn the whole flute section is missing! sian.. today Mr Eric Watson didnt come, his friend came instead.. quite boring la the whole practice...

after which i went shopping ALONE.. went to chinatown to get some stuff.. thn drag myself back home.. tomorrow is sunday ler..zzzz.. dunno i shld be happy anot.. happy that there's alot of fun awaiting in school for me!

wanting to learn how to play an oboe.. bt main problem is i dun not have an instrument.. difficult to learn.. i love oboe so much.. after oboe i might wanna pick up saxophone.. or even percussion instrument.. i love them so much! hmm.. maybe just jus concentrate on my flute, piccolo and piano ba.. need to buck up my piano skills ler... so lagging behind...

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7:52 PM;

HAIZ ! here i am.. 1 .28am in the morning blogging! cause Hui Jia COMPLAIN tat i didnt update my blog, and she got nothing to see! i emo la.. still need entertain you...zzzz.. Hui Jia! saw this? i update liao hor! dun say dun hv ar..!

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Friday, September 26, 2008

i think i'm going to get a very bad sore throat sooner or later! its getting worse! isit because of the weather recently, or isit because i ate too much fried stuff.. did i ? cant remember.. i think Hui Jia is the 'substantial cause' =) Hui Jia, u pass the virus to me le leh! hope i'll get well soon or doesnt get worse.. i still have alot work to do.. i'll always fall sick when exam is coming...zzzz... i hate that!

~hoping for a better tomorrow~

12:16 AM;

Thursday, September 25, 2008

today got so piss off in the morning on my way to school in the train.. there's this 2 china gals came in at Braddell, i was leaning at e side near the door and they squeeze in.. the funny thing is, there's alot of space infront.. that one i dun care. but the problem is they can't balance themselves in the train, one holding to the other's bag. Think what? tu-tu-train hur? then one couldn't balance and step damn hard on my toes! seems like her whole weight is on me! AND she stil have the guts to turn over and look at me without saying sorry! i got so fed up.. since you cant balance, go hug the pole la.. there's so many pole available in the train to let u hug all you want..

Then, when i reach dhoby ghaut station, something came to my mind.. "oh! i'm fat la, cant move out with the "BIG" space u both given to me" and i "ACCIDENTALLY" knock into them while going out.. AND i turn back to look at them.. in my eyes, was trying to say "oops! i'm so sorry!" thats what u did to me just now.. i'm just paying back!

Anyway, during this morning's criminal lecture we were debating on whether how many law lords actually were sitting in Holley's case.. some say 9 and some say 12.. but actually i kind of remember that i wrote something like "9 out of 12 law lords....." i thought is 12? hmm.. we are still arguing about it after class between me, hui jia, emiko, kayyathiri and tracy.. but nothing comes out...zzzz...

Have extra class with Ms Jennifer after school today.. mainly is emiko's clique wanna clarify some things.. i just wan "kapo" :) but anyway, is good too cause i can refresh those stuff in my mind.. After which, again, we had a small chat among us.. cant rmb what we talk about.. seems like we keep jumping topics! -.-''' Me and Hui Jia left after Ms Jennifer's class cos the rest are meeting Ms Nirmala.. AND Hui Jia got a date!!!!!!!! Hui Jia... why u always got date one ????? make me so jealous!

Finally i can sleep slightly later tomorrow! so tired.. still have to wake up early on sat for band practice.. dun feel like going...zzzz... but i keep bumping into Mr Eric Watson around my school! cos NAFA is near there as well... =.=

~TIRED~

6:28 PM;

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

today class as usual.. contract law in the morning followed by public law tutorial..Ms Nirmala came in and ask us why do we look so sad? when she ask me, i didnt know what to say but to just look at her -.-'''

only manage to finish both criminal essay cos i'm damn tired.. almost fall asleep on the essay last night and dun feel like waking up this morning. Me, Hui Jia, Vashon, Stephenie, Charles and Ms Jennifer were having a short chat after class.. hope i'm not wrong, is about NICE LOCAL FOOD in singapore..now then i realise that all the food which people think is 'nice', does not come from singapore.. it came from some other place -.-''' i kept quiet cause i really dunno where all the nice food is located! i have no perference for food..zzzz..Whatever!

after which we have our london examiner coming to guide us on using the online library etc... and the compulsory question we have to do for common law..seems like there's alot to read up from the online library.. in fact, is alot..

anyway, jus got home and going to start writing my notes for public law on the rule of law! jus wrote two sentence in sch jus nw, and the next thing i realise is, i'm hungry! and night class starting soon =.='''

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10:05 PM;

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

haiz.. today was fine i guess.. only feeling tired.. cos past few days i slept at 2 plus in the morning n woke up at 7 am.. alot of work to be done! today had time test for common law..zzz.. i had a very bad time management.. didnt finish the question within the time given.. guess i have to work alot on time management..

after class today, was with Hui Jia and Ms Jennifer for a short chat.. quite relaxing la for the day..After which we went our separate ways where Hui Jia got a date and me, as usual.. no date :( sob sob...

aiming to finish my both my criminal law essay by today or even better, the common law one as well.. so that i will have more time to read up on more from my study materials...heard that there will be mock exam..zzzz.. i'm worried.. the only thing i can do now is to 'ma mu' myself into studying and not get distracted for this period of time! i can do it! And i must do it!

having night class tmr conducted by one of the london examiner.. in between there's 5 hrs break! Hopefully i'm able to use this time to do more reading and writing of essays..

At home now, as usual.. aunt's nagging and me, dun care! you do your nagging i do my work..jus finish dinner and going to start writing my essay soon. Must really have the discipline to sit down and finish all.

Anyway, long day tmr.. hope all is well

7:44 PM;

Monday, September 22, 2008

My Hand-made rings! i love them all!!!!!!!!! bt too bad is not for me.. first time in history that i've made so many rings at one time! never regret at all cause its really nice =) *of cos la, i make one=) *

hmmm.. today's lesson was ok i guess ? haha.. after lunch me n hui jia met Ms Nirmala for extra class.. woah ! we confessed that we are slacking nw.. and i guess she's disappointed..i'm very sorry.. shouldnt have done that in the first place.. thought through what she said jus now.. i'm just lazy la..

wendy wendy!!!!!!!!!! wake up !!!!!!!!!!!!! i tried so hard to get into law school, definitely this is not what i want to see myself in!

Things that i need to do and i MUST DO IT !

Get myself back on track!
Stay focus!
Practice more, Write More and Read More!

~Last thing~ To all Ex-Silians: Please let me know who is coming for Ms Leong's wedding lastest by 30th sep 2008. Thanks!

4:41 PM;

Saturday, September 20, 2008

yucks! my dad came home with THAT woman! shyt la.. i wish he nv come back.. doesnt make any difference whether he's home or not. i really hate seeing tat woman.. if i didnt fight for my things, i guess i will hv nothing now.. REALLY NOTHING! and who the hell is she that i must greet her? she's just a passerby i see everywhere on the street.. i dun see hw i am related to her..

i'm so tired.. doing nothing much for the whole day n i'm feeling tired... guess i think too much la.. gt soooo much thing to do but yet didnt manage my time well.

i keep thinking of what Ms Cindy says before she left.."while others hv their rich parents to put them in sch without battling an eyelid, ur auntie has invested her whole life savings on you"... i think she will be disappointed in seeing me in this state now.. i really need supervision la.. i'm not really that good as people think i am..

wishing that i'm in a place where it can take away my troubles even for just a moment. ~A place belonging to myself~

11:07 PM;

i'm so excited !!!!!!!!! thanks to shu hui for making my blog alive! thk u ! its really nice, i love it so much...

slacking whole day today ! i jus cant have the discipline la! tmr going out with gabriel.. haha, tat guy, i just simply love to disturb him la.. plus so looong didnt see him alrdy. i'm going to disturb him well enough tmr.

looking forward to monday to have fun in sch ! so bored during the weekends.....

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