i now believe that happy moments does nt stay forever.. 2 days ago i was accepted by a law school.. was so happy.. and another thing which surprises me is my aunt finally allow me to take the course.. she also agreed on taking up a bank loan.. i was so happy.. it was the happiest moment of my life...
but gd thgs doesnt stay long.. i only hv a little chance of getting the bank loan approved.. as my family income was not up to their citeria.. i dunno what to do now... i really wan to get into law school.. i cant find another guarantor.. mostly pple who are nt related to you wun wan to be a guarantor.. i only hv one relative is is working n cn say is the highest pay among the rest.. which is my dad..
i was so looking forward to start sch next week... and.. this had to happen... why why why... am i really nt fate to study law... nw the only thing i wish for is the bank loan is approved.. or maybe miracle will happen.. maybe the school give me special entry.. aloowing me to pay instalments.. if not.. i guess my dreams is gone....
10:05 PM;
Monday, June 23, 2008
what i'm i suppose to do? i wan law.. i need alot of money to start this dream.. but i wan results as well.. i'm retaking O lvl this year.. but i really dun hv the confidence.. i dun think i cn make it.. i know i shldnt think this way. . bt lets face the facts..
if i start work now, i will be able to earn enough money to get to law school. that's the 21st birthday present i wanna give myself - to get into a law school. but.. if i go work, i'm sure to neglect my Os.. aiya!!!!!!!! i'm so confused now..
my aunt still doubt my ability to take law.. i cant count on her support.. i need to gain her trust.. in order to jus get 50% of her trust.. 1st step i must do is to pay for my own school fees.. the next 50% i guess is to show her how hard i'm going to work for it and get my examinations to pass with flying colours.
i remember someone told me, is good to aim high.. but i'm aiming till very "xin ku" ... Law is the only thing that i wish for now.. if i were to give up, i really dunno which area i shld concentrate on.. a failure in music, a failure in academic, a failure in work and a failure in friendship..
i soon to realise that law is nt a cheap cost.. even the materials cost over 1k for each !!!!!!!!!!!!! it is way beyond my limit..
hw i wish they day will come n stay there forever.. i dun wan to leave you.. i really gt alot of things to tell u.. bt i know it is impossible to ask the time to stay there.. i jus hope i really treasure the last time with you..
Missing you.....
10:05 PM;
Friday, June 20, 2008
i'm very happy today... cos i;m able to get u.. u really kept ur promises to me.. thank u so much.. i really appreciate for what u hv done!
10:19 PM;
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
r u back ? it has been over a week where u told me tat u r suppose to be back.. i miss u so much.. i really hope to receive ur message before u left.. tat was my last wish.. this blog seems so dead nw.. i'm waiting for u in silence...
11:24 AM;
Thursday, June 12, 2008
r u back? i'm still waiting for u.. hope u dun forget...
10:02 AM;
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
life is jus like a magic cube.. for some people.. they took forever to solve it.. jus like problems in life.. if one day i'm able to solve the magic cube and let it be back where it suppose to be.. maybe my problems end there....
4:47 PM;
Sunday, June 8, 2008
i love this song very much! i feel tat this song contains alot of feelings.. a kind of feelings which i'm having now.. hope i'm able to share this with u.. i'm back to usual.. aiming for something which seems so far away from me..
7:11 PM;
Saturday, June 7, 2008
i really hope i cn see you right now.. i really need ur advice.. something jus strike my mind... for now, i dunno i shld aim for gd results or money.. what do u think?
i keep relying on my dad's insurance money to support me for law course next year.. bt nobody know what will happen next year.. n i guess tat money is nt enuff.. hw? i dun wanna wait anymore to continue study.. i need e money... i die die wan go study law next year.. i dun wan to wait anymore...
i really regret retaking O level.. so what if i pass this time round? i wun be able to enrol into the law course in poly.. or maybe, i wun even wan to go poly.. cos i know i will get a course i dun like.. in the end, i will be wasting my time n which means i hv to push back pursuing my dreams..
if i start working nw, i will hv the money.. bt i sure cant cope with both work n studies... my O lvl gone... i really dunno hw nw.. i really wish u will reply my msg.. i'm waiting for you.. i didnt dare to tell anyone else nw... only you... please dun ignore me... ... ... ... ...
9:51 PM;
i hv a good news for you! i finally manage to get back my part! the conductor allow me to do so.. i'm so happy nw.. i'm glad tat i've found the courage to voice out n fight for what i want.. u r the first person i hope to share this with.. r u still here? i'm waiting for u...
4:00 PM;
Friday, June 6, 2008
where r u ? i went to look for u today, but someone told me tat u have left.. even tat person dun even know u left only after few days later.. i cant find u either.. r u still here? or hv u really left? u promise me to hv one last time with me.. i hope u keep ur promise.. i'm waiting for u....
11:49 PM;
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
i'm back.. finally back.. message you last week but u didnt reply..
10:21 PM;
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Currently studying in Stansfield College, School of Law
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Kim Seng Wind Symphony
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A gal working hard towards her dreams..
I believe one day i will succeed as i'm one step closer now..
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♫Wishlist♫
- To be a lawyer-ShuHui say de =)
- To have my personal flute
- Freedom
- Good Health
- Be Happy Everyday
- Write my own music.
- Hoping to see someone...
- To learn piano well
- To Pick up Oboe
- To Pick up Clarinet
♫Short Term Goals♫
- To complete my assignments on time
- To score well for my music theory
- To perform well in school
- To perform well in whatever upcoming band performance
♫Long Term Goals♫
- To obtain my Qualifying Law Degree
- To obtain grade 8 in flute practical and music theory